NeverBeReplaced

2006-07-08T16:32:00.000+08:00

Konichiwa! never blog for so long alreadi..=.= so anyway, i'll probably change the skin sooner or later or even tomorow. =) got too many pics at the museum so i just put some others ok?

the train.. it is rather clean. =)

the ballroom at the hotel. veri pretty. ^.^

the super crowded waiting area at the restaurent where i ate my lunch for 2 days.

the food. ^.^

a waterfall or whatever from duno where.. ^.^

that's all about it i guess. and i got back my report book a few weeks ago. didnt do so well..Hope i do better this coming CA2. must work hard! baibai!

Hongkong 2

2006-06-14T21:17:00.000+08:00

Hello! =.= I know i said i would post 3 days ago but.. Daddie subscribed to SCV and i kinda got.. distracted if you know what i mean. So lets continue on Day 1. Oh what the fuck. They say cannot conect to blogger.com. =.= Anyways, we went to the museum and saw Jackie Chan there.

Blur.. NOT REAL DE LAH! It is all wax. This was at the counter of the tram thing. We not suppose to take picture of it but mummie went against the odds and took a pic. Very blur like alien. Then i took this. Ok, now this time we [really] went in.

Me [the one looking like a frog] and Michelle Yeoh. [Nice split there Mich xD]

Moi and mummie with Brad Pitt. Woah.. Mummie look very siao.. xD

Daddie and Sylvester Stalone [nie].

Mummie and the royal family. [Queen Elizabeth and all] They provide accessories there. Cute.

Me and Princess Diana. She is so pretty. Respect her ;)

Dad making a speech. They really have the microphone there! It is the damn real thing.

Mummie and some dude. This pic clear rite? Tsk tsk, all the pics that i take are clear =D

I have to go watch Da Chang Jin already so will continue the pics another time. Nite nite~ [And my cartoons also]

Back from Hongkong

2006-06-10T22:09:00.000+08:00

Hi all! Im back from Hongkong!! xD You had to pay to get internet to your laptop and there is also computer stations at the hotel and cafe-s but i could not plug in the wire to the CPU coz there wasn't any CPU. It's all worked on one freakin server. There are thousands of shop along the road and probably millions of shoe shops. The town is really busy, even during midnight! People are seen walking here, walking there.

Went to the hotel, went to the room and made a mess of the bed. The result?

Not so bad lah hor? But also got another bed.

This one daddie messed it up. =.= Oh, and there is a table between the beds.

Funky xD

Wanted to take picture of the bathroom but my tumbdrive could not handle the [fat] size. So forgot about it.

Me getting comfy on the bed.

Find this pillow familiar? Mummie stole this pillow from the plane lols.

We arrived there at midnight so we immediately slept after unpacking our stuff.

Day 1

Had breakfast at a cafe. They had computer stations there too. Their tiramisu and hot chocolate there is awesome too. Then it was off to the Madam Tussands Museum! We had to take a tram to there as it was high up the mountains or something.

Me and mummie on the tram. The scene outside is nice, though cloudy.

When we reached the place, the whole place was visually packed with, clouds.

Gotta go sleep already but will continue the pics tomorow. Nite nite!

Going Hongkong >.<

2006-06-02T17:47:00.000+08:00

Elloz~ Im going Hongkong this coming Wednesday [7.6.06] >.< Kind of excited and kind of not-so-excited. Scared go there don't have connection. Im bringing me laptop there xD Lols. Heard from me friend that there the food sucks. Lols. And the restaurant each have 1km difference =O And i will be using my daddie's camera so can post and blog the pics in here! xD Really really hope will have connection.. Me need go bath ler. Baibai~

=D

2006-05-30T19:07:00.000+08:00

Went out with Jan today. Lols. So fun! Went to Compass point to eat and stuff then later sat on LRT for no reason. LOLS. Then went over to her house and her mummie made me a yummy bubble tea! =D And also had a cup of raspberry blended ice! Im getting hungry.. Lols. Then we did something special =) It's a suprise xD Mummie arranged a tutor for me for Math and Science x( But i really got study! Abit larz. I got study. I got study. I really got study!

Damn Sian...

2006-05-29T18:32:00.000+08:00

Today Monday ler arh? Walao. Kanasai. =.= On Friday that freaking Duncan go run to me and say that James tell Fab if he kiss me he will give him $2. and you know what Fab reply? "Ok" What the fuck? Damn the bloody ass out of him. He is either a money-face or a damn freako. Hate him. >.<>.< Me go to go take bath lerz. Smelly lols. xD

Freaking God!!!!

2006-05-22T16:36:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Today was like so embarrassing lor... Our teacher wrote on the board "1.Boys are better than girls in every way" and "2. Teachers are usually fair" and she said we had to write our point of view about any one of it. I chose "1." and started on it.
After 20mins, teacher ask us to put down our pens and present it. Teacher chose VR to present and she talked about "1.". Then all the girls clapped while the boys said "boo" and stuff. Then VR had to choose another boy to present and the boy chose a girl and so on. Then a girl chose Fab and everybody was like "Ooooh.. Fab surely choose Ber de wor.." Then i was like rolling my freaking eyes at them.
When Fab finished presenting, he had to choose a girl and everybody was chanting "Bernice Bernice Bernice Bernice" and the freaking thing was, he actually chose ME! FREAKING HELL!!! Then everybody was cheering and stuff while i freaking went up to present red-faced.
I held the mike and hesitated to speak while i made a walao-face. Then i gave up and spoke: "I think boys are not better than girls in every way. They can do things that we can't but so can we. They...." Blah blah blah... And the last part was: "Boys think that they are better than girls physically and mentally and they bullys girls and i think they are freaks!" All the girls clapped loudly and all the boys were like shocked. ^^ Anyway me had a great day so i end it here, Tata~

-xBeRnx-

=[ Must I Leave Him..? Forever?

2006-05-13T17:11:00.000+08:00

When i look at the stars at night
It holds a willingness of strong might
It holds a strong sense of comfort
Healing me through my hurt
Maybe you and me were never meant to be
You are well belonged to "she"
I have to stop
Im falling down, drop
But i have to go on
I have to be strong
I have to forget about you
You can never be mine
Find my true life
Wherever the hopes are
I will carry on without you..

-xBeRnx-

Bruises All Over..(?!)

2006-05-09T18:20:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Today is (Dang!) the start of my examination and im SO tired. But you can't say stress 'cos im not really stressed. ^^ Just really tired. We had Chinese Compo today and i think i did pretty well. And i wrote about Ting. ^^ Good stuff of course. Hope teacher would think it is good too! Wish me luck! =] And in class i was hit on the head with an eraser. =.= Guess by who? Fab! Then when i turn behind he was like sorry sorry. =.= And my class is like SO pervertic lor. And i can't believe i wrote about the human reproductive organs. Blehz.. Dad's off to Delhi today for a business trip.. Take care Dad! And now i would like to take the opportunity to complain about Maths. It is like so what lor. I can't believe there are people in the world who are Math Whizs and love Maths. I mean, get real. Math is so damn HARD HARD HARD. It should be banned in the 21st century. Math like sucks so bad lor. And of course my Math sucks really bad too. That's why i hate it. Im gonna go bathe liao so baibai~

-xBeRnx-

Oh My God!!! He Is Like So Cute Lor!!! ^.^

2006-05-03T16:56:00.000+08:00

Hi all!~ I haven't blogged for like a week? O.O I was too lazy i guess.. =P There are so many things that i have benn wanting to write in but too lazy also.. =P Hai hai hai!! There's campie! I pretty much enjoyed it. Though our dorms were kinda stinky and with the mud and stuff in the Nature Rumble, i think it is worth it.. So i won't say much about it lor.. Now the main point i came to blog is because i found a a pic, wait no.. 2 pics actually on Fab! ^.^
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Cute right?? You know, now then i realised that he kinda looks like my idol JJ Lin.. Lol.. ^.^

While on the contray..

I look like shit like that. If you can't recognise who am i covered by the ugliness, im the girl with the specs. Got so many alien fingers putting bunny ears at Mr Guna.. =.= Anywayz, gotta go bathe le.. Tata!

-xBeRnx-

Changed Blog Layout..!

2006-04-23T20:08:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. I just finished changing the blog layout.. Nice not? I took my first glance at it and knew it was made for my blog. Lol hehe.. The navigations are pretty nice and i liked the picture. *Shrugs* At least it is a change. Though i had some problems with the font colours of my previous posts, it turned out better than expected. *Shrugs* It is just my thought of it. I bought JJ Lin's 4th album yesterday! So bloody nice lor.. Hehe. I strongly recommend you to buy it though it only has 10 songs in it. *Shrugs* Tomorow is camp le.. Sian. Im so looking foward to my tomorow. Not. =.= Now im like so bloody damn sian lor. Ting changed her password and never even tell me. =.=" I find out from her later ba. I sibeh scared tomorow leh!! Lame sia.. =.= Aiya i sign off le lah.. Nothing much to write also.. See you in 3 days time..~

-xBeRnx-

So Fun!!!

2006-04-20T18:40:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Nothing much happened today lah.. Just the usual stuff, except that i fell down on my butt while chasing JW in class this morning.. Though not really pain but it was kind of embarrassing.. =.=" Ok stop! The main point was yesterday. Let me tell you about it..:

It started as a normal day. =.=" Then i had to stay back for my CCA. I ate with my friend TL then went to play hopscotch with her. Then suddenly, Ting and Cher approached and i was of course, delighted lah. =) Cher asked whether me and TL wanted to go out of school to buy some titbits. TL didn't want to as it was drizzling already. I then hesitated a little because of the same reason. With much more "Please lah"s and "Awhile only"s, i agreed. But we had a better idea. Cher and i decided to skip our CCAs to have more time together! =P Then we took off with our bags and walked out of school. With only my small umbrella for shelter, we were a little drenched but at least we made it. ^.^ Then we walked somemore until we came to a "sand pit" and we put our bags and took off to a playground. After more playing and eating of snacks, we had to leave soon. =( So we went back to the "sand pit" and played the slide. It was really fun. Then we wrote down our crush's name on black sand with a stick and filled it in with white sand. ^.^ Then we left the place and went back home. We were lost at first (Lol) but fortunately reached school. We were also covered with mosquito bites but it was worth it. =) We had played together for 4 hours straight! =D It was a really fun day! =D
Gotta go le.. Cya!

-xBeRnx-

Poems..

2006-04-18T17:21:00.000+08:00

Life Getaway

My life is like shit
I just wanna get away with it
I need to catch my breath
Before it goes aways in the wind
Time to time
I try to find the meaning of my life
What is life?
I don't get it
It is my life but i don't know how to control it
Im tearing
Im screaming my head off like a damn freak living
My life is not yours
Get lost
My life is fulfilled
Now i need to get healed
On my life getaway

-xBeRnx-

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2006-04-18T15:40:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Today i cried in class for a bloody comment that my fucking partner said. Then later, i began to lose concentration and thought of dying and did not finish my homework. Then later i lost my pencil case. While i was going home, I put the books i was holding in my hands into my bag. It was really heavy and i fell down on the road. My life serves no purpose. My life does not mean anything. If i just die, i can end all this. And im like crying now for no fucked up reason. How pathetic am i? They say "Death is not the way to solve problems." But hey, nothing is impossible right? Death just keeps sounding better and better every minute. Woopeedo. I got so much homework to do. Im so bloody fucked up frustrated now. And i ended up pointing middle fingers at my partner, calling him a son of a bitch and a half-fucker. But nobody understands me. They just think im an innocent little crybaby that is easy to be bullied by. And they say im vulgar and they tell teacher. Why can't they just get a life? I just want them to stop. It is not that hard right? They just have to control their own life and stop dealing mine. And whoopeedo, im will be more than contented. And my partner is like such a damn asshole. He not only bullies me, but bullies my group members. He steals my pens, hides my books and kicks my chair. Thinking that my group member TS is so timid that he can just bully him like that. And TS lets him get what he wants. Only when i stand up for him then that DC will bloody shut the fuck up. Bloody asshole lah. DC if you are reading this, i suggest you GET A LIFE AND STAY OUT OF MINE!!!!

-xBeRnx-

Walao Eh Lor.. She Is Such A Bitch..

2006-04-16T14:44:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. I was training on fire boars in Maple on Friday when this girl came down and ks-ed me. I was angry but i tried to hold from asking her to fuck off so i just asked her to change channel(cc). She did not reply and continued to kill my area. I kept repeating to ask her to cc but she still ignored me. So i asked my guild member to help me out.They argued for quite awhile..

Their words were getting more ridiculous.. Until when me and my guild member gave up on wasting our time on her and i cc-ed. She very bitch right? =.=" So idiotic. Now for poem time! =)

I Love You

Staring at the beautiful sunset
Wishing that you were here with me
Dreaming about our times together
Wishing that it would last forever
My life is you
You are my dream come true
I am nothing without you
All i want to say is that i love you

-xBeRnx-

o.O

2006-04-13T17:53:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. I have not blogged for days cause very sian, nothing to write.. =.= Hey! Got pictures le! Scroll down..
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The now me!

The last time me!

Got difference ma? And im telling you, the Olay Whitening Cream really works! Hahaha.. Kidding.. Never really tried it before but was thinking of actually.. =D Give me some comments whether it works or not ok?

-xBeRnx-

Tired..

2006-04-07T14:27:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. What a tired day! Got so much homework to do.. =.= And need chiong Maple.. So got nothing much today lah.. Just more beating of boys and more fuck-calling.. =.=" Cya~

Birthday!

2006-04-04T21:20:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Happy birthday to me!! =D Just finished eatting the cake. =D So yummy! Here's the photo: The pretty yummilicious cake!!

Ya lah.. Only the cake only. And guess who's birthday is today also? Heath Leger! The dude who acted in Brokeback Mountain or something.. Well i need go do homework le.. Rushing.. =.= And today in class, that Bx go say out that today my bday then everybody went "Oooh.. Fab got give you present ma? Where you all going later?" Then i was like "Siao lah." =.=" Crazy de they all.. =.= Well gotta go do my homework le, Nite nite~ (Now is 9.26pm GMT+8)

-xBeRnx-

Sick Again..

2006-04-03T10:26:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Im SICK again! Zzz... And just when i thought i could relax, my mum called for me to do assesments. =.=" So now im here, doing lor.. Sian sia.. But at least i no need to go that sculpture walk thing.. =.= And i should warn all those copying me and my stuff to STOP IT. Because if i find out who you are, YOU WILL PAY FOR IT AND IT WOULD SURELY NOT BE PRETTY. YOU HAVE A CHOICE SO DON'T CALL ME UNREASONABLE OR IDIOTIC. WATCH OUT YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE FREAKS!

-xBeRnx-

Dying

2006-04-01T10:05:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. I am having a fever and flu now after crying for 1 hour last night. How pathetic am i? And tried vomiting last night but it did not make me feel better. Would slashing my wrists help relieve my pain? Im still crying now. And still having a headache. I must well die than have all this sickness. I need to vomit le, Cya.

-xBeRnx-

=(

2006-03-31T21:15:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. I just saw Jan's nick and i was really really hurt. I was ordering my crush around, yes but i only did that because i love him. Deeply already. I did not want them to tell him anything like i like him or what. I did not want him to stop talking to me. I did not want him to be snatched away by Jan and Ting because i really really want to be with him. My crush is turning into love. Why doesn't anyone understand? I admit i am really selfish because i want the ones who i care for care for me too. And only me. I really really do love him. Help me god..

Understand Me

Please understand me
My every action every move
The things you said are hurting me
I can feel my heart breaking
I think it's time i give suicide a chance
To stop this mess from becoming enhanced
My tears are slowing dripping out
For no reason im gonna shout
Slipping in the silence
Hiding alone in the shadows
I can't see any hope in my life
No light
Im gonna cry while i can
To comfort myself
There's no one i can lean on anymore
I only have myself
The person who not even i understand about

-xBeRnx-

Hoowee..

2006-03-27T18:40:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Im like rushing through my homework now so can't talk much.. I just now went to on Maple and Fab was online!!! Well not really JUST now lah.. ;D And we talked with Corey again. But it was just awhile only, like 20 mins.. Sigh. Do you think he really likes me? My friends say yes.. And my whole class too. Haiz. And that Fab say i owe him 400k because he called me in class but i swear i DID NOT hear him. Well kinda. >.> Im going mad over all this Math problem sums now. Grr. Haiz. Im so tired! Tomorow i have supplementary until 3pm and i would be staying back for another 2 hours to do some freaking art thing with my friend. HAIZ! Gotta go do my work now. CyaZ~

-xBeRnx-

Oh My God!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-03-26T13:10:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. I have like HUGE news today too. I just chatted with Fab on Maple!!!! We chatted so happily with my friend, Corey. It was really nice. And Corey said that Fab told him that he likes me!!! Oh my god!!! And i added Fab to MSN too!! Oh my god!!! And also in Maple, he told me that tomorow morning, he is going to put like this freaky book on my table!!! Oh my god!!! God!!! Haiz.. I need to do my tution homework already.. And me and Jan patch up le!! Im really glad. So i go do le.. Cya!~

-xBeRnx-

Oh My God!!

2006-03-25T23:20:00.000+08:00

HI ALL I HAVE LIKE HUGE NEWS NOW. I JUST MET FAB IN MAPLE!!!!!!!!!!! CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? I TALKED TO HIM!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS LIKE CRAZY!!!!!! INSANE!!!! AND HE ADDED ME!!!!!!!! OH MY GOD!!!!!!!! INSANE!!!!!!!! SIAO LIAO!!!!!! Oh my god breathe.. Breathe.. I REALLY CAN'T BELIEVE MY LUCK!!!!!!! AND IT WAS AT NIGHT WHEN MET HIM!!!!!!!!! 11PM!!!!!!!!! Oh my god.. This is like so oh my god.. I gotta go sleep le.. =( Nite nite!

-xBeRnx-

Sick

2006-03-25T16:13:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Feeling giddy and got headache now.. =( Yesterday kinda like vomited so im not gonna blog much today. Going to do my tution homework now.. I feel like vomiting now le.. =(

-xBeRnx-

Yipee!

2006-03-24T15:00:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Sorry i haven't like written in you for days.. Busy! >.> Today I played catching today and it was like more fun then ever! I caught Fab like 10 times or so then he suddenly wanted to be catcher. >.> But that was still fine with me. Then we play and play and play. So fun i tell you! And yesterday, we had supplementary. Then teacher let us out to lunch abit later as we need to design something in the computer lab. Then blah blah blah and we were off to lunch! Then everybody ate finish le then we play catching again! It was like SO fun lor. Just our class together.. Nobody else. And you could see that everybody was having a good time. We play and play until we were late! Teacher lucky never scold.. =D So got nothing much lah. Things have been normal. Or should i say way much better! My days are really starting to look up! =D Hope you are having fun too! =D In class i am also starting to get happier.. =D Smile smile smiley! =D =D =D And today got poem le! =D

Days starting to look better

My days i starting to look better
My smiles are getting greater
My dream life is starting to come true
Hope this blessing upon me would come on you too
It is better then it had ever been
The next day im more keen
No more feeling shallow
No more disliking yellow
Has god finally heard me?
Will he grant me true love oh thee?
My days are starting to look better
See you later!

-xBeRnx-

Bloody Hell!!

2006-03-21T15:42:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Sorry didn't write in yesterday.. Because got alot of homework lah.. And my tution of cause.. But i have like HUGE news about today!! Listen in.. >.> : I needed to stay back for supplementary and off i went to lunch with me friend AT. Then ordered laksa and went to eat. Perfectly normal right? Here comes the part.
Then i went to toilet with AT. Then later went to wait for teacher behind the canteen. And this bloody PW went to touch my hair and i screamed and chase after him. And beated him hard on his back (Ouch!) and went off. Then later he came again and again, and i kept retying my hair again and again. So i got fed up and asked AT to guard me. But he still bloody managed to touch my hair. Then later he said that i loved Fab and wanted to sxexxx with him. This time i really got mad and screamed at him to shut up.
Then later another guy, JW said that not only did i loved Fab, but i really really loved him. And i gave chase and beat him on the back. When i went back, all the boys were like behind Fab and pushing HIM to ME. And suddenly all the girls were pushing ME to HIM. Lucky me and him were strong enough to hold ourselves back. And the boys were like chanting "xBeRnx love Fab". Then i quickly ducked down and ran to the line as my teacher came. And when in class, Fab kept looking at me! And i just quickly turned back, trying to look casual. >.>
Then when we were dismissed and were walking to the gate, he was right in front of me. And suddenly he stoped walking, looking for his mum i think. So i just continued walking, trying to smile at him. >.>
Do you think he really likes me? Haiz.. Who knows? I've got a ton of homework to do now so Cyaz~

-xBeRnx-

Eeeek!

2006-03-18T15:58:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. So you all remembered when i said i was going out for sushi right? Well we didn't! While i was bathing with all my clothes and make-up prepared on my table, my dad told me from outside the bathroom that we go out tomorow! Freak right? =.=" And i just leveled up in Maple!! Woohoo!~ =D And i just now got Black Tube! For level 50 de!! =D But there will always be bad news de also.. I stil need to do my homework.. =.=" Haiz.. No poem today.. =( Need do homework ma.. So until then, CyaZ!~

-xBeRnx-

So Sushi!

2006-03-17T17:19:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Got to go bathe soon so i'll just quick-talk.. I finally could download the patch!~ Then got this new place called Aqua Road and it is so bloody cool i tell you! ;D Go check it out! Now i don't usually bathe this early de, mostly at 6.30pm then i sneak into the bathroom while Dad comes back. =.=" But later im gonna have sushi for dinner!~ Yum! Dining out.. So must bathe abit early ma.. Ok so poem coming right up on xBeRnx channel! =.=" Boh liao..

I just wished

I just wished that you would talk to me
Like im a normal girl that you can see
I just wished that you would go out with me
Seeing how the sun sets on me
I just wished that we could be together
Not letting go of your arms forever
Wouldn't it be great if this wishes really came true?
Then i could be oh smiling at you
I would wish on a shooting star for you
Let it protect you forever too
I would stay by your side like a dog being leashed
Oh how i just wished

-xBeRnx-

Maple Die!!!

2006-03-16T19:01:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. You remembered when i said i going to chiong Maple right? Well i cannot. Why? BECAUSE GOT THIS BLOODY DAMN PATCH I CANNOT DOWNLOAD SO CANNOT PLAY. KEEP SAYING WHAT FREAKING SERVICE UNAVAILABLE. WHAT THE F*CK LAH. So you see, it is so damn stupid lor. Then my friends say must go buy the CD and don't know what shit lah. Sibeh walao leh. Poem liao lah!!! :@

Why can't things go my way?

Why can't things go my bloody way?
Cos i wanna say what i wanna say
What the hell is wrong today?
I can't do the things i want anymore hey
So im crying away
The tears that i wanna lay
And im crying away
By the words i can't say
What had the world come to be?
It's no longer connected to me
Why can't i do this this and that?
I just wanna buy that newsboy hat
I no longer can get what i wanna get
Or get rid of this fat
I just wanna shout another hooray
Why can't things go my way?

-xBeRnx-

Chioooooooooooooooong!

2006-03-15T13:45:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. So lonely now.. Lol.. Then can chiong Maple ma! =D So no need compete and catch up with those bastards! xD Higher level higher money! =D Higher money higher property! =D Rich rich rich! xD =.=... So boh liao.. =.=" I got some GREAT (=.=") news for all you readers, i will try to make an effort to write a poem in every entry! I love poetry!~ =D Though some of you may think it is lame, poetry is somewhat like song lyrics you know? I get ideas of this poems by coming up with a melody from a song and then start making words~ And poetry can really express your feelings in many ways. From beloved words~ Im gonna write 2 poems this time! =D

Free

Girls like me just wanna be free
Not to be stuck in misery
We just wanna live our lifes in harmony
Having cute boys by our side-ie =D
Just wanna be free
Wanna be free
Get out of this trap in me
Wanna fly like a bird oh thee
Im getting it right
Going through it with all my might
I just wanna see the light
Just wanna be free
Wanna be me

Missing you

After so long
Long long gone
It was just only a week
But i was feeling so weak
I couldn't stop thinking bout you
Or how you will look like when we come back through
Your face is captured in my heart
I had to stop saying but
Your gaze makes me melt
I always remembered how i felt
I had always cried on you
My heart thee is true
Would the time pass quicker?
Oh im really getting weaker
Im going crazy over you
Im really missing you

-xBeRnx-

No Time De!!!

2006-03-14T10:43:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. After all this weirdo posts, i finally saw that no time de.. =.=" But who cares right? And i have a bloody tution later at 12.30pm =.=" What the hell lah.. =.=" My neck very pain.. *Yawn* I write another poem le lah! =.="

My Life

My life is just all about work
With all the teachers in it, jerks
I just wanna break out of this jail
And go out and get the mail
All i do is just be at home, stuck
Why can't i get out, f*ck
Can't my life be exciting?
Like maybe more cycling?
My life is so dead
It is nothing different than an old pencil lead
Oh god, oh god just help me please
My old life back then i really missed
Oh what i poem this is
Not as elegant as it should be at least
Whatever the heck my life is
My life will stay the way it is

-xBeRnx-

Oooh God!

2006-03-13T19:07:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Just came back from my bath. Don't ask me why so late lah.. Everyday like that de.. I not smelly de lah! xD School holidays le!~ Hope you all enjoying yourself! ;) My blog the posts like no comments column hor..? =.=" Don't know lah. You got things to say just write in the taggie lah hor? Be kind, don't write not nice de things can? =D Must give me some face ma.. xD Just awhile ago hor, uh maybe quite long ago lah, Jan quit our chat. Not giving us a known reason by mankind. Ok maybe abit too bloody kua zhang le lah hor.. Anyway, then we just decided to leave her alone lah. Let her calm down. But then she put her status as "do not disturb" so i figured that she didn't want to be provoked lor. Oh my god. Jan is in Ting's account now. And both of them are talking to me.. Argh. It is so confusing! And uh another poem coming up next!

Lost In Confusion

Im lost
Looking like a blank staring horse
This is like that
And that is like this
Which is what
Who is whom
You are me
I am you
What the hell is all this
It's so confusing geez
Im lost in confusion
Drowning in illusion
Cos im lost
Lost like a horse
Lost
Lost in confusion against illusion

-xBeRnx-

Morning! >.>

2006-03-12T10:21:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Morning. Sorry didn't write anything yesterday, cause got nothing to write. =.=" Lol.. So anyway, IM STILL STUCK AT LEVEL 42 IN MAPLE!!!!!!!!!!! What the f*ck!!!!! Oh damn. Another poem just popped in my head. Uh and im gonna write it (Duh!), so hope you like it lor.

Stuck

Im stuck here alone
Tryin' to find my way home
Without you by my side
Nothing seems alright
So im stuck
Yeah stuck
Out of luck
Everything here sucks
So im stuck
Stuck
Out of luck
Stuck
I couldn't think of anything
Everything's gone everything
Not even a something
I didn't have anymore ka-ching
So im stuck
Stuck out of luck
Stuck

So how'd you think? >.> Uh im gonna go laze around so until then, CyaZ!

-xBeRnx-

Mood Swing

2006-03-10T19:55:00.000+08:00

Hi im back again.. I have no idea why i wrote that poem just now lor!!!!! I did not have a break up!!!!! Must be mood swing again lah.. This morning when i woke up, my heart was like telling me "Go ask Fab to play catching with you today!". Then i was like "no way" and just shook my head. But then my heart kept repeating that until i was fed up. And i suddenly looked like i faced the shining light of the whole idea, and PRACTICED the lines in my head over and over again. Then as i got nearer to school, i started getting dizzy. But then i saw Ting and Jan ok le. Then i told them that i was going to ask Fab and they pushed me to him totally in the idea. Then blah blah..
Then we were like trying to ask Fab and Zc then my class the JW go push Fab to me. Then Jan and Ting push me to Fab and say i want tell him something and left me standing there. But i did not dare look up then quickly run away. =.=" But during recess he joined in! But luck did not direct me. Alot of the girls were like chasing and guarding him and i did not even have a chance to like run after him or something. And Ting was always chasing and guarding him. So i was really jealous and mad. But did not show it. Until in Skype. I mean can't i just at least.. Nevermind what the f*cking ever. And i think that was why i wrote the poem. But who cares? Nobody cares about me. Nobody ever cares how the f*cking damn i feel. *Tears streaming down eyes* Nobody. Oh look now i have to like fake a happy expression on my face. Cya..

-xBeRnx-

Broken Hearted

2006-03-10T18:59:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Im gonna write a poem for those girls out there who got their heart brokened. It expresses a feeling that im quite feeling now too. Hope you like it.

A Brokened Heart

We were the same age
And we were engaged
Everything was perfect
Everything came intact
Years have passed
Things didn't last
I lost trust
You were not there
When i was somewhere
My heart had broke into a million pieces
You gave me many unpleasant disses
I lost my soul
Which was whole
Something i couldn't show
I had lost you
There were many things i couldn't do
You had cheated on me behind my back
My willpower i lacked
I was dying
And you kept lying
And went on denying
This piece of art
Represents my brokened heart

-xBeRnx-

So Boring!!!!!!!

2006-03-08T15:55:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Just came back from my CCA.. So sian lor.. =.= Uh well got nothing much today lah, Just the usual homework and stuff.. =.= At least got write ma hor! I go chiong Maple le.. (Still stuck at 42 =.=") So until then, Cyaz!

-xBeRnx-

Oh My God!!!!

2006-03-07T15:31:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Oh my god. I spilled juice. Be right back!!!!

Ok back. Finally cleaned it up.. It spilled unto the table and to the floor.. Luckily not so much. Ouch!!!!!!!!!!! My wound... Today me, Ting and Jan we play catching again ma then i fell lor. =.=" And i got back my Science marks le! Not bad wor!! 77!!!! Lol.. 1 on both elbows and another on my knee. =.=" Then we do analysis then Fab keep looking at me see whether i got wrong the question also then when i did, he smiled~ Swoon! And then after our suplementary lesson we went home and Fab was like infront of me with another guy. Then later i was sort of hoping he will stop at the bus-stop but he passed it and walked off.. Sigh. Lol.. Oh my god, i need go do my homework now!!! Cyaz!

-xBeRnx-

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa =(

2006-03-06T16:45:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. I am like so doomed lor. I got back my Math test today and i got Band 3!!!!!! Sniffie.... Let me just show you my marks:
English: 61.5/100 =( So lan...
Math: 59/100 Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! Even worse...
Higher Chinese: 70/100 Much better.. >.>

Others i haven't get back yet.. =.= So haiz... >.< Until then, Cyaz!~

-xBeRnx-

HOORAY!

2006-03-05T11:32:00.000+08:00

Hi all again.. I finally managed to get my blog working again!!!!!!! Hooray! Nice me? >.> Lol.. Im so happy lor.. Hehe.. And i change the song too! Nice ma?~ >.> Ok nothing much to say le so until next time, Cyaz~

-xBeRnx-

WHAT THE FREAKING HELL!!!!!

2006-03-05T10:19:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. I've been trying to type in my bio in the blog but i can't!!!!! When i write only a few words in the bio part, then nothing come out!!!! FREAK LAH!!!! Guess i have to find another one... Sigh. So i better get busy now (And also do my tution homework, last minute!!). Wish me luck! Cya~

-xBeRnx-

Freak!!!!

2006-03-04T20:24:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. My layout nice ma? You know, i was changing the things like my profile and stuff then after awhile when i go check on it then everything never appear anything de. And it happened about 10 times! Freak right? I kept typing and recopying the HTML into the template until my fingers sored. =.= And i was really mad when i nothing came out again and again. Until i gave up and went to bathe, have my dinner. And you know that i just received a call from CA. She said that me, Jan and Ting isit argue and then me and Jan told Ting that we want break up. That it totally NOT TRUE. And she was also talking to Ting at the same time according to her. And im suspecting that she may be making this up. But im a little worried that Ting might get carried away with her "trap". I mean im really don't wanna lose Ting.. Sigh. When has my once been normal life come to this tradegy? =( Im going to Heartland Mall le.. So Nitez and Cya!~

-xBeRnx-

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

2006-03-03T13:34:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Just had my lunch just now. Quite full le haha.. And i was sick today again! Got a slight fever and sore throat and abit of flu.. And i was SO sleepy this morning. But i still went to school half-day. And poor dad came to pick me up lor. He was injured too. He coaches one of the soccer clubs so Tuesday he and the coaches had a friendly match together. Then we he kicked the ball, he fell down and one fatty (According to him) came charging to the ball from behind and stepped on his right hand. i repeat, right hand. And dad's a right handed! Somemore the fatty was wearing soccer boots so you can imagine the studs on the shoe.. Then his hand was swollen lor. But lucky not fractured. Haiz.. And i slept from 10am until 1pm just now! Damn shiok.. Ahahaha.. And i got back some of my marks le. Chinese: 31/40 Science:46/60 and my the other CHinese paper i counted wrongly and it was 44/60! =( Haiz.. I better go chiong my Maple le, that Pengie level 43 le!!!! Cyaz~

-xBeRnx-

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! =(

2006-03-02T17:43:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. After the good news yesterday, there will always be bad news at the end. What's the bad news? Is that i got only 18/30! Bad huh? I just passed by 3 marks. 3!!! And 1 of my good friends, AT, cried today in class. You know why? Because she got 17/30. Then i was like walao, no need cry ma, the marks almost same as me but i never cry. She just took this test toooooooo seriously le.. Poor her. But i did managed to cheer her up and she finally turned to her happy self. ^.^ Haiz.. Test stress! That's why my face got pimple le. >.< So i tried to sweet-talk my mother by saying that i did SO much assesments until my pimples come out but she knew me too well. =.= She said it was because of my hormonal changes or something. Haiz.. But to be honest, i did not study for any of the subjects. Not even ONE. i just play play play and lie to my parents that i studied. =X Shhh don't tell!!!

-xBeRnx-

Is Chinese That Hard Ma?

2006-03-01T14:02:00.000+08:00

Hihi.. I just got back my Higher Chinese Language (HCL) paper and guess how much i got..? 45!!!!!!! Yay! And it is not upon 100 lar. =.= It is upon 60!! And my mum said not bad!!!!!!!!!! Ahahahahaha.. =) *Hugz and muackz to myself!!! AHAHAHA* Teacher went through with us the paper and then ask us on the particular section we are at whether anyone got full marks for that then she will add points via boy or girl cos we playing a game is girlz against boyz ma.. Then 1 section i full marks so raise lor. Then 1 of my friend, SL, turn behind and said that Fab said "wah siao" to me. Ahahahaha! Im not just those ordinary type of goody-two-shoes hor! I've got brains AHAHAHAHA!! Ok and um got nothing else to write le so until then, Cyaz~
P.S. Jan and Ting get well soon!!!!! Luve you~

-xBeRnx-

Argh ugg....

2006-02-28T13:48:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Im like so sian lor.. Today the Math test quite ok lah but still got some sums don't know how to do.. >.< Now i've got like humongus news, maybe not that big but still.. listen: Today it started out with my dad massaging me and all. Thanks dad! It was very shiok. So i woke up and staggered to the bathroom. Normal. Then when i reached school, i could't see Ting or Jan so i walked to Gate B and walked back to Main Gate and finally saw Ting who was in the toilet just around the gate. Then blah blah blah.... Then when i went to sit down with T during assmebly, she told me that Fab, had a webbie about sxexxx. (It's a code, try to break it.) And i was like so shocked. And i was screaming in my head also. But i just casually said i don't care and continued to read my book. But T didn't stop. She said that R was sitting beside Fab now and i should change place with her. I turned behind to look and i saw him chatting happily with her and laughing. Then i quickly turn back beaming with anger, jealousy and hatred. R is a nice, funny and smart girl, but why did he have to like just be with her ALL THE TIME. I BE WITH BOYS TOO AND I UNDERSTAND HOW HE FEEL BUT ISIT THAT HE WANT TO MAKE ME JEALOUS?! GIRLS GET JEALOUS MORE EASILY THAT'S WHY THEY ARE MORE EMOTIONAL. Boys just DO NOT understand us. Freaks!!!! IT IS NOT MY FAULT THAT I TALK TO BOYS BUT THEY STARTED TALKING TO ME FIRST. AND I HAVE A HUNCH THAT R LIKE FAB!!!!! I DON'T WANT TO SAY THIS BUT DAMN! I HATE FREAKING B*TCHES. This is not the end of my rants but i need go chiong my maple. SO until then, Cyaz..

-xBeRnx-

Yipee!~

2006-02-27T17:42:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Let me tell you something.. I JUST LEVELED!!!!!!! LEVEL 42 NOW!!!!!! YAY! =D Now i can catch up with that Pengie and Jan! (Lol sorry Jan =P) And you know what? Today during the assmebly, Fab sit behind me!!!!! When we were dismissed i stand behind him!!!! Such a perfect day... Uh not really. Jan today sick and went home during recess.. =( We went looking for her but couldn't find her.. We were lost without you Jan.. =( Hope you can come to school tomorow! (She's had a fever for 3 days or so le!) Get well soooooooooooon!!!

-xBeRnx-

Today So Damn Tiring..

2006-02-24T17:34:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. As you see my title, im obviously, totally, tired. Zzzzzz.. I just came back from the "traffic games". Sian. the weather was so hot that i thought i was never going to make it. Damn! I mean not REALLY JUST lah! Haha.. Here's a poem i just thought of. Hope you will like it. =D

I'm sitting here all alone in my room
Thinking 'bout the times we've gone through
Looking at the perfect life we had
Thinking what made it all go bad
If only you were here with me
You are the only one meant to be
Because only you can make a smile on my face
When we are together at another place
You are the only one for me
It can always be a maybe
I don't wanna cry on you
Forgive me if i ever do
My feelings are true
But what good will it ever do?
You can always lean on my shoulder
Even as we grow older
I'll always lend a listening ear
Cos i really wanna be your girl
Just call out my name
I will be there
To show you how much i really care
We could be true
It's all on you
I really do love you

Uh ok this is the end of the poem. So how'd you think? Can i qualify to be a poet or maybe song writer? Haha.. Uh i need chiong Maple again le, Zzzz.. So until then, Cyaz!

-xBeRnx-

Im Happy!~

2006-02-23T15:59:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. I got password! I mean like the blog lah. And always remember: YOU WANT ME PLAY WHAT SONGS MUST TELL ME HOR? Ok.. Let's see what's on today: We had our exams today, but is not counted is report book so no scary. And we had to sit according to our index number and of course we did. When i just casually let my eyes float around in search of Fab, to my suprise, he was QUITE near me. My beside the behind the behind! So i was like abit shocked and that time he was looking straight at me! And i quickly turn back lah. Then later we had to put our bags at the back of our classroom and we did it row by row. Then after the exam, we went to take our bags back. And you know what i saw? Fab's back was leaning right against my bag. Like my bag the in front. Then i was like shocked. And it wasn't even ordered by our teacher where we must put! Then when we assemble in the hall that morning, Fab was actually in the 1st row, then when girls came, he changed to my row! And when we stay back for extra lessons, i saw him looking at me the whole time! Like every minute i will look at him, he will also be looking at me, even when my group needed to sit on the floor! And.. Ok. I'll stop yaping about him.. But he is just SO DARN CUTE!~ Uh, i got to go chiong my Maple, one of my classmates catching up with me! Cyaz!~

-xBeRnx-

Wink Wink =D

2006-02-22T15:14:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Got music right? ^.^ I just did it about 1min ago.. =D Nice ma? If you want me to play other songs, feel free to write them into the "comments" column. Im always free to have a chat with my readers. ^.^ Just give me the title of the song or the artist name.. Ok, after this few days, im going to write more today. Here's what the hell happened today: After all those horrifying stack of worksheets we did today, it was the end of daaaaaay.. So i went out to line up and wait for the slowpoke teacher. =x Then 1 guy, i forgot who was holding Fab's hand like swinging him or something. The hand-holding kinda freaked me out a little.. But anyway, he pulled Fab and he was like retreating and he nearly knocked me over. Then i was like screaming. And Jan's crush was smiling. =.= Then he (Fab) quickly ran to the front. Obviously embarassed. But lucky the other pupils were in their own world. So not so many witnesses.. Phew! And the rumours about me and Fab being an "item" is spreading! Ahhh! =.= Freaking hell. And also when me and Jan were at recess, we walked pass the field and i saw Fab like styling (Maybe pushing or whatever) his hair up and looking at me. Cutie!~ Ok that's all for now, im going to look at more blogskins so until then, Cya!

-xBeRnx-

Hooha!

2006-02-21T16:31:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Doing my homework now, sian.. Lalala.. Chinese somemore! Argh.. I was thinking of changing the layout again you know.. This IS nice, but the chinese words.. >.< (I know very little lah but at least got write ma hor..=P)

-xBeRnx-

^.^ ^.^ ^.^

2006-02-20T17:15:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. I just changed my template.. Wanted to make password for my blog ma.. =P But nice right the angel? But don't know why the password thingie never come out de.. And also the Chinese words all come out like some Tamil words or something.. Anyway, just wanna say happy enjoying my new template! >.< Cya!

-xBeRnx

Morning!

2006-02-18T09:54:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. This is my first "morning" post. It's true. No alterations of the time. Don't believe also never mind. Anyway, i just wanna say that Jesse McCartney is totally hot. Can you believe i only realised that in the past few days? His songs are also really nice. I've been repeating his songs over and over again. ^.^ If you don't think that his hot, you must be crazy. And this few days, i've been thinking of putting up my photo.. Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeew! Got a bug just now in my room.

Ok. Im safe. In my parent's room now. The bug was SO gross man. And also if you don't know how hot Jesse McCartney is, i'll show you the pic of him. Hmm.. Let me find one. Eee.. Canot upload the image.. Walao eh.. Aiya. Just go yahoo.com and click images and type in Jesse McCartney. So that's all for now. Until then, Cya!

-xBeRnx-

多一样东西....

2006-02-17T22:26:00.000+08:00

Hi all again.. Just before i forget to add in, i have happy news! Well, to me lah. Today we went to the computer lab to do some Chinese work. Then i suddenly remember i forgot to bring in my 作业. So i rushed to teacher and i got the class keys and took off. A moment later after i went back to the lab with my 作业本, i just casually let my eyes wander to Fab's seat. But he himself was not there. I was abit suprised lah. Not i repeat, NOT worried. It appears that he went to classroom to take his 作业本 too! But i had the keys with me, so how did he managed to get in the classroom? Well that certainly is weird. Anyway after we did our stuff there, we went back to class of course. Fab was right in front of the line waiting for everyone to be at the side of the wall as we had to "U-turn". Then i saw him and he smiled. I smiled back a shy smile. ^.^ *Blushes* He is so cute! Swoon~ Then my heart jumped a little too.. ^.^ And also i wanna say Happy Birthday Jan (Today is her bday)! May happiness be on its way to you and may it last forever! And also hope that all your birthday wishes and dreams can come true! And i think one of them is including Bx.. Lol.. So that's all for now. Nitez and Cya!

-xBeRnx-

BORING!

2006-02-17T17:24:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Im so bored that im practically going to sleep. It's so boring today!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Maple sian le, no more fun games.. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. So until then, Cya.........

-xBeRnx-

Today's Theme: Homework, Homework And More Homework

2006-02-16T14:28:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Ah. As you see my title, that's the reason i can't really write much today (Which is now). =( So much lor. Sian............... And now my mind is thinking of a song that my friend sang for me called "His your Fabulous Fab". =.= How stupid, is that? And today i asked Bx, Jan's crush whether he friend her anot. He said why not leh.. Im happy for you jie~ ^.^ But don't like her lah, just friends only.. Uh i better go do my homework now, later still can write ma. So until later, i mean then, Cya!

-xBeRnx-

Nothing...

2006-02-15T21:05:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. As you can see my post title, nothing much really happened today. Well maybe not. Besides me and Fab's so-called "daily exchange of glancing", we had Art and Craft lesson today. Let me single out the details: My group leader, A, had brought hundreds of sticks and twigs and so Fab's group needed some too. R and S came by our table to collect some and went off. After a minute, Fab came by our table (Which is also mine, because we did it on MINE table) and dropped one of our twigs on our artpiece. And then he said:"Boom! Fire!" Then i giggled lor.. Hehe.. =P Then we just continued our artwork. We finished it today too. You could say that it kinda looks messy.. But it still had potential.. =D There is nothing much now, but my bro just found out i had been making a blog! >.< Uh, so until then, Nitez and Cya!

-xBeRnx-

Happy Valentine's Day!~ Muackz..

2006-02-14T16:20:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Happy Valentine's Day! Too bad for me that i do not have a valentine.. Yet. But today as usual, Fab was looking at me in class, sometimes smiling too.. Hehe.. =P And i need to do my 习字.. SIAN! =.= Wish Fab was here by my side to talk to me now.. So how has it been for all you guys (And girls also...!)? I wanna know too! =P Send me (If you wanna)to the comments column. Nothing much to write le.. So until then, Cya!

-xBeRnx-

Walao...

2006-02-13T16:12:00.000+08:00

Hi all... Just finish my tution.. *Sniff* Got SO much homework to do.. *Sniff* Maybe not so much lah.. *Sniff* But got the stupid 周记.. *Sniff* Wonder why i got so many sniffles? *Sniff* Because just now in air-con room.. *Sniff* Now need do my damn 周记.. And hor i nearly forgot.. In class today when teacher was yaping about Science, my crushie, Fab suddenly said "Eh, tomorow Valentine's Day hor..?" Then my partner, D, told him "You have a date ah? Who leh?" Then i could feel my cheeks warming up, thinking that he must be talking about me as he turned back to me after he replied. Then i quickly turned my attention back to my teacher, not knowing what was on Fab's mind.. And hor this morning, he sat my behind the behind the beside. Then i was like oh my god.. This few days i had sat close to him.. *Blush* =) Uh so i better get doing the damn 周记.. Until then, Cya!

-xBeRnx

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! (Part 2)

2006-02-10T14:46:00.000+08:00

Today hor.. Oops.. Forgot say hi.. =.= I have another piece of news.. Fab again! R told me that he admitted to her that he like me.. >.< I don't know whether true anot ma... And in class he glanced at me quite a few times and coincidently, i was glancing at him too! I think i saw some sparks fly.. Hehe..*Blushes* He is SO cute!! Hehe.. And then today at PE, we were learning gynastics. But i had to sit it out as i wasn't feeling well. Then i scanned the place until i saw Fab with his group. Then when it was his turn to do the stunt, his feet went abit too back, and he somersaulted backwards. Haha.. Then he looked up at me and smiled.. And he rubbed his neck also.. Maybe pain.. Haha.. Cute right?~ *Blushes* =) Anyway i go play MapleStory le.. And oh, i heard he plays Maplestory too!! But he is in world Aquila.. I in Bootes.. Sian. I try to get his charater name lor..! Hehe.. Until next time, Tata~

-xBeRnx-

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

2006-02-09T15:46:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. I have big news for all of you readers of mine blog. No. Make it HUGE! Ok. Let's start from the very beginning: We were waiting for our Music teacher to come in our class. Then suddenly my crush's group members suddenly went around him. Then suddenly 1 of his group members R, went up to me and said that they told my crush, Fab that i liked him. Then i was like oh my god. Why they tell him?! Then she continued, saying that at first he said "I don't know lah." Then they repeated that i liked him, and he just started dancing around. At least that was what she told me. Then she asked him " Is it you very happy?" He replied "Ya lah." She said "Because that Ber like you?" He replied "Ya." After i heard what she said, i really couldn't believe it. But i DID see him prancing around a little and smiling.. Then when we were going off to lunch, my friend, who was in front of me said that Fab helped me hold the door then quickly ran off when i came out. Then i was like thinking siao.. A part of me couldn't believe what happened, but the other part of me is i teensy bit happy.. Oh i don't know.. But at LEAST he doesn't hate me or whatsoever.. Anyway i go to rush my homework! Cya!

-xBeRnx-

Boring...

2006-02-07T20:25:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. This few days are so boring, they should be recordered. Bored bored bored. Teacher yaped about Math today again. About stupid fractions and asked us to do 5 whole pages of fractions. Blah blah blah. Is this what school is only about? If it is, then im clearly not interested. I mean like, why can't we have lessons about make-up products and skincare and hair and stuff. It would be something educational for us girls who will be growing up to be independent women. Have you seen any lady off to work without any make-up on? And starlets who looked less i-rule-the-red-carpet without their make-up? (And i mean ladies alright.) The wonders of make-up is well-known around the world. So why can't we learn on that? And hair. It is something we live with in our lifes. Can't people see that we need to take care of them? And you may say im concern about my looks and may be a vainpot but who doesnt want a good impression of everybody? Who doesnt want to be beautiful? You may say looks don't matter but, which would you most likely choose to marry an ugly: a pot-bellied, smelly, grudgy-looking man or decent, well-looking, neat man? Probably the nicer one which is da 2nd one right? So beauty is something to be inspired and fond of. Not something to be mistakened by! And ok, let's get back to what happened today. During the supplementary today, SD7 said that their class computer spoiled and so they suggested to change classrooms as our computor was working well. But to our horror, their classroom was much smaller than our's and so are their sitting arrangements. Than teacher told us we could sit freely. I took a sit casually but when i turned to my right, my crush was sitting my beside the beside the beside! Than he slowly turned and saw me with his cute beady eyes. And he quickly turned back to talk to his friends. So cute!~ Than blah blah went the teacher and more blahs, than finally it was over. It was a so-called normal day for me today. Until then, Nitez and Cya!

-xBeRnx-

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.....

2006-02-06T17:55:00.000+08:00

Haiz.. Just finished tution.. Not really just lah.. But still considered abit just lah.. Anyway, i thought the tutor was going to be like those nerdy-looking tutor. But it turned out that the tutor that look like a fashionista gone wrong! She had siren pink lips, permed-dyed brown gold hair, silver eyeshadow, sassy handbag and can speak English! Don't get me wrong, it's a cool look (Abit ah-lian also), but her skin was oily and abit tanned and also her face... (Laughs nervously) Doesn't really suit that style. But she 100% does not i repeat DOES NOT look like a china-gal. She's not young lah, but also not that old lah.. Her teaching was ok lah.. I meant tutoring. And i had homework.. =.= Sian lor. Then she explained some of the chim Chinese words in English like she speaks very pro English. Then she when yap-yap-yap and more yaping about the blahs and hahs. Then with my heck-care attitude i finally went through the painful yaping of hers. Anyway, that's all for today. Cya all again next time!

-xBeRnx-

No Tution Please!!!

2006-02-05T12:00:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. My mother has arranged a tutor to come my house to tutor me in Chinese! Sian lor.. This is my first time having tution you know.. Haiz.. And it starts tomorow!!!!! =( And the tutor told my mum that she is going to let me 多听，多看，多读 and don't know what other shit lah. Why can't parents understand our feelings? All they can say the whole day is: "It's for your own good ok?" And im thinking it is some kind of chant already. Anyway, yesterday i went to watch I Not Stupid Too (2). Did i say that already? Then i haven't said enough yet. The two boys in the cast. Shawn and Joshua become so shuai le! Haha.. Well i have to say the screening was better then the first one. And the expressions were more intensed. So for me it is a must watch for al those who have not watched it! Okay.. So that's all for now. Until then, Cya!

-xBeRnx-

Happy 初七!!~

2006-02-04T22:56:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Today i went to watch I Not Stupid Too (2). It was really nice. And also touching (I nearly cried in some parts). And then after that i went to my grandma's house to loh hey. It was fun also. Me and my cousins played alot of card games to past the time. And 1 of my 4-year od cousin went to touch my dangling earring and said: "I want take out your earring and want put on my ear. Can take out? Very nice. Can take out so can put on my ear?" Very cute right? Haha.. She's very cute in person too. Um, so that's all for today. Need go watch TV. Haha.. Hope you are not reading this now. Cos must have enough rest.. Lol.. I also lah. So until then, Nitez and Cya!

-xBeRnx-

Screams F*ck The Damn Bugger!!!!!!!

2006-02-04T11:09:00.000+08:00

Hi all. I just found out last night that my account got hacked. Seriously. And i think i know who the culprit is. C-h-e-r-y-l. I heard from Ting that at about 5-6pm when i was bathing, someone logged in my character and said in buddy:hi, xiao mei. But i don't call Ting "xiao mei". I either acknowlege her as mei or Ting. And i don't put coma. And she asked Ting in my character whether she wanted 50k. Ting said no. And she told me that Cheryl told her she was broke. So i guess that is the reason why she took a huge sum of 500k from me. And she used up 40 of my Blue Potions and ate 1 of my Fried Chickens. F*ck her man. Damn. Hope she goes to hell. Damn her. She is such a shiting b*tch. Argh. 500k leh. All my hard work is just taken away from her like this. This really sucks you know. And she told Jan that she, Sher, Ting, Fang and Fen are sisters. Sisters. Ha! That b*tch is like such a copy cat. Because me, Jan and Ting are already sisters. And she just snatched away Ting like that. That f*cking b*tch. Her whole family are all freaks. And she thinks she is like whoa, almighty damn queen. She even insulted 1 of my maple friends. She wanna do something nasty, i can be more nasty then her. I've never really shown my darkest side to anyone. Yet. Damn her. That f*cking b*tch. Well there's nothing really much else to write le. Say f*cking things about her won't get my money back. Until my next post, Cya!

-xBeRnx-

Yipee!~

2006-02-03T15:19:00.000+08:00

Hooray! My blog is back on track. Thanks to my lovely Jie!~ Hehe.. Or should i say best? Hehe.. Cos i overdid my "aaaaaaah"s then the thing stretched or something. Lurve you jie!~ Lurve lurve lurve you~ *Muackz* And today i came back early from school because i am sick.. =( Got slight fever, sore throat and flu now.. =( This morning got stomachache also. *Sniffie* Cannot see my crushie so much today.. =( And today i felt so sleepy in class. And last night got headache.. And.. I think i'll just stop there lah. Anyway, i feel sleepy now.. Zzzzzz.. But i would not let it stop me.. *Tumbles on the floor like Humty Dumty* *Gets up* I think the flu medicine has made me.. *Eyes drooping* *Snores like a pig*

-xBeRnx-

Oh My God.. Why Like That? (Part 2)

2006-02-02T20:44:00.000+08:00

Okay.. I have definitely calmed down a little after the tradegy but there is still a problem: I have no idea why my profile, links, chatroom is all the way at the bottom. I mean i was like oh my f*cking god. Why is it all the way below, not up? F*ck. Damn. Didn't want to put the real vulgarity as i mean seem like a vulgar girl. =.= Hope i don't cancel this again.. But just to sumarise a little on what i have been trying to write, here's the scoop: Boring lessons the past few days. All was Math Math and more Math. The subject i most dislike. It doesn't get me a job as a make-up artist or even a fashion designer. Sure, you have to measure the lengths and stuff but what does problem sums benefit us in? In stressing us? Well that's really lame. And i just know the teachers are out there to get us. If you say we go school to learn, why still scold us, beat us and even cane us? Because we didn't do a particular thing well. And we go school to so-called learn and you scold us for not doing it well. Hello? We go school to learn not to be scolded. And we are kinda like you slaves. We must please you in everything lor. Then it is like so what. =.= Why not you please us? And all the "you"s are refering to the teachers. And if you yourself is a teacher reading this, then uh.. Hope you will understand our students' feelings on our school life. Past 9pm le.. Have to off laptop. So until then, Nitez and Cya!

-xBeRnx-

Oh My God.. Why Like That?

2006-02-02T17:20:00.000+08:00

OH MY GOD. I JUST WROTE ALOT OF THINGS AND I PRESSED A BUTTON AND EVERYTHING DISSAPEARED. AND YESTERDAY I WROTE ALOT OF THINGS ALSO AND I COULDN'T PUBLISH IT COS GOT NO TAG OR SOMETHING. AAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!! IM GETTING VERY MAD. ARGH!!! KILL YOU DAMN KEYBOARD OR FINGERS. LET ME CALM DOWN FIRST THEN I POST MY REAL FEELINGS IN THE BLOG.

Oh Gosh..

2006-01-31T14:00:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. If you had checked my blog yesterday, you may have seen some changes like 1 post was deleted etc. I don't really wanna talk about it but it was just a small matter between me and Jan. But we are really going great right now. Just wanna apologise to you, Jan for my petty attitude about the situation. Hope it is not on your mind right now.. And haiz, i got alot of homework to do so i guess i better go do it now lor. Till next time, Nitez and have a Happy Lunar New Year holiday.

-xBeRnx-

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~

2006-01-30T12:01:00.000+08:00

Hi all!! Happy Lunar New year~! Sorry i couldn't write much the past 2 days cos i didn't have time! Yesterday i had to set off early to my grandma's house. Imagine all the ang pows! And i got $406 in total! Woohoo! I learnt to play manjong yesterday, but without money lah. Then my cousin brought his dog! So damn cute! Couldn't take a pic of it.. =( I think it is a silky terrier or something.. Black grey in colour. I also carried him! But he squirmed like mad.. =.= But still cute lah.. And today i may be going to watch I Not Stupid Too(2)! Woohoo.. And im gonna get more ang pows too when i go to my grandma's-sister's house! Money money money... Lol.. Gotta go train my character le.. =( So have a Happy Lunar New Year and Nitez in advance!

-xBeRnx-

Happy Lunar New Year Eve!!

2006-01-28T12:03:00.000+08:00

Hi all, just wanna say Happy Lunar New Year Eve!! May all you young readers get alot of ang pows and all you uh, older readers get lots of oranges and for those senior citizens, may long live and prosperity be with you! Today i can count down with Jan! Woohoo! So i will be staying up quite late.. Well there's nothing juicy or new here today so that's all for now, cya!

-xBeRnx-

HELLO!

2006-01-27T14:09:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Im back again.. I made a HUGE mistake. I turned out that everyone was dismissed at 1pm!!!!!!!!! Den i went back class and i was like omg when i saw the clock. Then i told teacher then she let me go down tell mum.. And then today at the celebration, i kept glancing at me crushie!! Then he saw me look, then i turn to my direction and then i quickly turn back.(Hehe..) Then got 1 time me and him turn to look at each other at the same time! (Then like got sparks.. Hehe) Then he looked at me with his cute beady eyes.. (Blushing now le..) Hehe..So cute. Okay guys n gals, that's all for now. Wishing everyone a Happy Lunar New Year Eve in advance for tomorow!

-xBeRnx-

Haiz..

2006-01-26T21:08:00.000+08:00

Hi there again.. I think you guys (and gals) saw 1 of Jan's post (If not, go my "Links" and click "Jan's Blog" which i wil be changing to "Best Friend Jan's blog" soon). I really didn't mean to say that it didn't concern me. It was because.......I can't really say it, but if i must.. Then here goes nothing: It was because when i went to her bloggie, i saw that she had typed things nearly exactly the same as me. And she even put up pic of maple like me! I may be wrong, but it doesn't hurt to suspect a little. If you are reading this Jan, i really shouldn't have told you off like that, but i still hated the fact that you pulled away my PE shirt and kept pulling and pulling and you refuse to let go. I really hated that moment. But if you are just playing around, you should have understood my limits by now. If you really want to play like that, try not to go too far. Because i don't really appreciate "games" like that.=( And im also sorry if i hurt you, i really didn't mean it. Hope you will understand. Now do you all know why? I know i should not have said it out. But i really couldn't help it. I just started spilling everything out..=( Well, that's all for today. Now is pass 9pm le.. Guess i better go off lor. Nitez and have a Happy Lunar New Year Eve Eve in advance for tomorow!

-xBeRnx-

MapleStory: Me "Adventures"

2006-01-26T17:39:00.000+08:00

-xBeRnx-

Another Tired Day.. (Sigh)

2006-01-26T16:36:00.000+08:00

Hi all.. Im back again.. And oh great, a pimple sprouted on my chin. =.= Anyway, today may be a "tired" day but it is a day to look foward to tomorow!! Why? Because tomorow, school will end at 12pm instead of 1pm and i don't have to bring any textbooks!!!!!Woohoo! And my crush got picked to be Chinese monitor!!!!! FREAK!! Don't know why he is so popular de.. So many people vote for him. Damn. Freak. And now, may i present to you, Me, Sher, Ting and Jan's uh, friendship part 2. (Nice huh?) Here's the episode: Me and Jan had recess together today and as usual, Ting and Sher were ignoring us. Then when at lunch time, i saw Sher, Ting and Jan having recess together. Freakie right? Then i just went over to them then they talked to me like i was their bestest (New word. I invent de. ^.^) bud or something. It was totally bazaar. But it did make me happier a little you know? Cos i got to play with them after their lunch. Sher's not that bad after all.. (And i hope it stays that way!)

-xBeRnx-

4 Posts In a Day!!! (Woohoo! Got world record?)

2006-01-25T20:44:00.000+08:00

Hi again.. I know you are sick of hearing me.. But you guys (And gals) have no choice.. Muahahaha.. Just wanted to ask all you readers (Of mine) if you guys (And gals) have any ideas on what i should do about the "friend problem".. Keep those mails (Or maybe comments) coming in.. Otherwise i very paiseh de.. Don't have any readers.. Lol.. I'll definitely find time to read all of your suggestions and questions. But please don't put negative things in unless well.. You insist. Now is coming to 9pm in Singapore time (Im Singaporean), so i guess i better sign off (Later mum nag).. Nitez and have a Happy Lunar New Year in advance!! ^.^

-xBeRnx-

Friend Prob (Emengency, Must read!! Not copyrighted)

2006-01-25T18:51:00.000+08:00

Hi im back again.. I know i said that i would write another entry tomorow but i just can't resist sharing this to those who are personally reading my bloggie: Me, Jan n Ting were actually really best friends. But since the new year started, Sher snatched Ting away from us. She also looked the part (Evil-looking, gossips alot, think she is pretty or something). We of cos were really mad (Angry), and that Ting hor, say is not Sher the fault, it was that she just wanted to go with her. =.= Then me n Jan were like why she wanted go with her lor. If you are reading this Sher, i suggest that you go eat your sh*t. And Ting, i really consider that YOU should consider whether you really wanna leave me n Jan. You can leave our friendship but you canot leave us. Because you know why? You sweared to Jan (And maybe also me, i forgot) before that we would be sworn sisters and that if you break it, you will be striked by lightning. And Sher, you better watch out!

-xBeRnx-

First Real Post (Applauds)

2006-01-25T18:25:00.000+08:00

Hi there again! Today has been a tired day for me.. All those big piles of homework! Feel like lying on my big belly and have a nice nap! Haha.. Had a little friend problem just now.. =( Just calmed down after all those shouting and screaming and uh.. putting caps lock..Haha..Maybe i should introduce my interests, even if you don't really care: I like animals, especially puppies and kittens.. Uh, and i like to play MapleStory (Heard of it before?).. And um.. talking to my friends and blah blah blah.. Just what a typical girl would like. If you have any enquires(Woah. Chim), post them in the "comments" column. And also if u have any questions about me lor. I will try my very best to anwser them(If they need to be anwsered).. And i have posted enough posts for today so see you guys (And gals) tomorow!! (Or in my next available entry!)

-xBeRnx-

Newbie

2006-01-25T18:10:00.000+08:00

Hey there! This is my first time blogging..! Of cos im excited!! I don't give out personal info like my name, age etc. But i can tell u 1 thing: Im a very funny and outgoing, good-in-studies girl (Sort of) and that is all you have to know about me. Have fun reading my blog!

-xBeRnx-

NeverBeReplaced

Hongkong 2

Back from Hongkong

Going Hongkong >.<

=D

Damn Sian...

Freaking God!!!!

=[ Must I Leave Him..? Forever?

Bruises All Over..(?!)

Oh My God!!! He Is Like So Cute Lor!!! ^.^

Changed Blog Layout..!

So Fun!!!

Poems..

...

Walao Eh Lor.. She Is Such A Bitch..

o.O

Tired..

Birthday!

Sick Again..

Dying

=(

Hoowee..

Oh My God!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh My God!!

Sick

Yipee!

Bloody Hell!!

Eeeek!

So Sushi!

Maple Die!!!

Chioooooooooooooooong!

No Time De!!!

Oooh God!

Morning! >.>

Mood Swing

Broken Hearted

So Boring!!!!!!!

Oh My God!!!!

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa =(

HOORAY!

WHAT THE FREAKING HELL!!!!!

Freak!!!!

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! =(

Is Chinese That Hard Ma?

Argh ugg....

Yipee!~

Today So Damn Tiring..

Im Happy!~

*Wink Wink* =D

Hooha!

^.^ ^.^ ^.^

Morning!

多一样东西....

BORING!

Today's Theme: Homework, Homework And More Homework

Nothing...

Happy Valentine's Day!~ Muackz..

Walao...

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! (Part 2)

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

Boring...

Nooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.....

No Tution Please!!!

Happy 初七!!~

*Screams* F*ck The Damn Bugger!!!!!!!

Yipee!~

Oh My God.. Why Like That? (Part 2)

Oh My God.. Why Like That?

Oh Gosh..

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~

Happy Lunar New Year Eve!!

HELLO!

Haiz..

MapleStory: Me "Adventures"

Another Tired Day.. (Sigh)

4 Posts In a Day!!! (Woohoo! Got world record?)

Friend Prob (Emengency, Must read!! Not copyrighted)

First Real Post (Applauds)

Newbie

Wink Wink =D

Screams F*ck The Damn Bugger!!!!!!!